I've been faced with many challenges, especially relating to on the one hand, the need and desire to film "reality" (ie not just performative pieces like cute kids singing songs), and on the other, a discomfort with filming in difficult situations. I'm noting how my own anxiety and the perceived and/or real discomfort of the subjects play off of each other. The dilemma came up abruptly when four of the children’s (siblings) biological father was very sick with TB and in the hospital. He was an alcoholic and absent most of their childhood and thus they were in the care of the school/home where I'm filming. Still, they loved him and would go visit him in the hospital. The relationship was complex: the 14 year old boy, Rajendra said to me, "I love my father, but I don't like when he would beat my mom".